BEREAVEMENT

Dear Life,

It's the second day since the tragic death of my beloved maternal grandma. Nothing has changed, I mean my feelings. Bereavement stage is supposed to be kicking in now but am I really in? I have no idea whether I am in the middle of grieving the lost for I feel that I did not feel as sad I am supposed to be. People always talk about the stages of bereavement and how one has to encounter enormous emotions and phase before actually accepting the fact that something which has gone is gone, forever eternity. What seemed to be missing is what precedes bereavement? What signs may indicate a person will be going to the first stage of bereavement or starting to feel the grief? No one knows. The answer is murky, no clear cut as to what point to bereavement.

If only I know when will I bereave, I would have not twisted my own mind over and over again asking myself when is the right time for me to do so.

Hopefully, (again have to be optimistic although I don't seriously 100% feel so) the answer will resurface soon.